Day 9: Kindness

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“Kindness is a language that the deaf can hear and the blind can see.” Mark Twain

It still astounds me that I'm on this trip. I think back to a year ago and there is no way in hell I would've done anything like this, let alone by myself. It's been a hard year, I've had to learn to be without someone I was with for 9 years and then jump in head first into dating, which hasn't gone well either. I haven't made the best decisions for myself, because I wasn't ready to be with anyone else. I was so caught up with wanting to just be with someone that I didn't ask myself why I wanted to be with them. The answer in both cases weren't good enough reasons to be with them.

I started the day at my friends house in Phoenix. She had to go to an interview so I hung out until she got back. It was nice to have a couple of hours to just chill, not have to worry about checking out or leaving right away. We were able to chat for awhile before I was going to meet up with another friend. She just moved to Phoenix and saw I was in town so contacted me, we had a nice lunch catching up and then she let me come back to her place to do laundry which I was very grateful for. Having both of these people that I haven't seen for a long time offer their homes and time for me meant a lot. I'm not going to know anyone else the rest of my trip, it was nice seeing familiar faces.

Today's drive to El Paso was excruciating. I'm not sure why, I didn't drive nearly as long, it was only six and half hours, but I was antsy the whole time. I'm getting tired of my music and, to be honest, I'm getting exhausted from not staying in one place for very long. My body hasn't had a chance to recoup before I get up and do it all over again. Tomorrow will be no different, if I go through with my plan I'll be driving for almost 9 hours again. I'm just not sure when I'll be able to rest enough again to feel refreshed.

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